SO MANY TIMES

So many times

I have visited your memory

Trying to wrap my mind

Around the unexplainable

Asking why

How could you do that to me

You used me

Hurt me

Laughed at my pain

Called me ugly names

For what?

A few moments of release

Did it make you feel like a man

To force me

To rape me

I just don’t understand

Thank God I never will

Joseph Men

November 22, 2002

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